I have a project I need to work on.
I am not working outside of the home. I do not have a job. I am not pushing my jewelry business. My kids are in school all day.
This is the PERFECT time in my life to work on a portfolio for acceptance into a graduate program in art or art education! It has been my dream for a long time to go back to school.
Each day, however, it is so easy to find other things to do! I want to go back to school more than anything! And yet, every day.... other "things" seem to draw me away. One of those "things", I am a little embarrassed to confess. But they say the first step to fixing a problem is admitting you have one. SO here it goes. I am addicted to Skyrim. And if I actually turn on the xbox, I can lose hours with out even realizing it!
Ironically, I knew that would happen. I know my personality. And for the past couple of years, I have intentionally stayed away from the beautiful RPG game. I KNEW that if I started, I would become engrossed.
But, my son made a comment about how I wouldn't be able to play! So, I needed to show him I could. The next day, when everyone came home, I had spent a good four hours playing and the house was smelly and dirty.
No laundry done, no supper ready.
But, I had slain a dragon.
I am not working outside of the home. I do not have a job. I am not pushing my jewelry business. My kids are in school all day.
This is the PERFECT time in my life to work on a portfolio for acceptance into a graduate program in art or art education! It has been my dream for a long time to go back to school.
Each day, however, it is so easy to find other things to do! I want to go back to school more than anything! And yet, every day.... other "things" seem to draw me away. One of those "things", I am a little embarrassed to confess. But they say the first step to fixing a problem is admitting you have one. SO here it goes. I am addicted to Skyrim. And if I actually turn on the xbox, I can lose hours with out even realizing it!
Ironically, I knew that would happen. I know my personality. And for the past couple of years, I have intentionally stayed away from the beautiful RPG game. I KNEW that if I started, I would become engrossed.
But, my son made a comment about how I wouldn't be able to play! So, I needed to show him I could. The next day, when everyone came home, I had spent a good four hours playing and the house was smelly and dirty.
No laundry done, no supper ready.
But, I had slain a dragon.
I realize that those of you who are not gamers may not understand.
The whole concept of an adult woman having an issue with wasting hours a day on a video game may seem ludicrous. But this world of Tamriel is amazing! It is like I am living in a world such as Middle Earth or Westeros (Game of Thrones). It is such an involved game, I believe I could play for the next year and still not discover every camp and tower. Or learn how to create every piece of weaponry and armour. And you can actually read books of lore and history in this game. That is cool.
Enough about this game which has taken over my life. It has changed my parenting. I have learned to not be so harsh on the boys when they are in the middle of a board and I think they need to do something else. Maybe I will let them finish.
Yes, this is a little bit of a let down of a blog entry. I am not creating anything useful like soaps, or pretty, like my earrings, or unique like my paintings... but it is how I have been living the past couple of weeks. Today, I exercised every bit of self control and cleaned the kitchen, and sat down and sketched. And I realized I should write. It helps my creativity if I write and draw daily. I just forget that sometimes.
So I exercised self control today. I do a little bit of work.... then, I can venture into Skyrim again!
I started a blog which will serve as an online art journal/ sketch book for my portfolio. If interested, I could use opinions and feedback and yes... criticism! I can handle it!
I should get my newest sketches and layout up today.
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